3 revelations

so here are 3 revelations that have been revealed to me since yesterday afternoon:

1. there are 3 types of people in this world, and all can be defined with an anology of an escalator, going up. first, there are the people who stand on the right side of the escalator. the lazy, fat people who have no self-esteem, but can effectively hide it behind cunning ideas and swift moves. they are the ones who have all the right connections, coast through their lives, riding the "fast lane" and reaping all the fruits of everyone else's labor. second, there are the people who walk on the left side of the escalator. they are the people who are a bit less lazy. like to work out a sweat when doing their work, but don't like to give all the credit to others. they work hard, but get a few treats here and there on their way up to the top. last, there are the people who say, "SCREW THE ESCALATOR!! LAST TIME I CHECKED I WASN'T DISABLED AND HAD 2 WORKING FEET TO WALK ON!" and they take the stairs. they work their asses off. with every bead of sweat comes hard work and determination to make it up there. they may not make it there quite as fast as the losers on the fast lane, but they get up there. no doubt. (getting off the subway and walking up to the street level yesterday afternoon)

2. faith is like love or hope. something you can't really touch, or see, or hear. you just have to believe in it. (watching 'premonition' last night)

3. life. just. sucks. ass. life is full of shit and there's really not much you can do. all you can do is to love that it's so beautifully imperfect, that is what makes life so beautiful. be who you are and don't let anyone tell you to be anything otherwise. (watching 'little miss sunshine' today)

how are you making in to the top? how is your faith? when was the last time you deafened your ears to the voices of those who think they've got it all figured out?

unbelievable.

it is unbelievable how much one phone call can do to you.

so i got this unexpected phone call from a very good friend today. i haven't exactly spoken to him in like...6 months. but, we were pretty close for a while, but circumstances since then has made it difficult for us to talk often. but yeah, he called me. and it was just...it was a good surprise.

we caught up, on all of life's happenings. talked about a lot of things; about religion, family, regrets, answers, "awakenings", passions, death, life. it was a good talk. and i'm just really happy right now because i...i really missed him and i'm more than happy right now because we got to talk.

i'll just leave it at that...

it's hard to love when you don't know who you are...