10282006 - chasing cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
chasing cars - snow patrol

would you lie with me and just forget the world?
sometimes, whether with you or not, i wish i could just do that.

10182006 - untitled

long time no post, i know. promises to make up for it...soon.

here's a recent one. recent as in less than 24 hours ago, not quite titled yet, -

i can hear the muffled wind, whistle into my ears,
across the hairs on my face, past my dry lips.
the cold earth keeps me awake,
shadows lurk behind each thought -
of your call.
the clean light shines through the leaves,
as the red sun sets gracefully to rest.
my stream of memories run clear,
and the scent of your shampoo remains on my shirt, lingers in the air.
i walk through the leaves,
the colors erase -
everything.

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"Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it"

yellowcard - back home

10042006 - "forget me not"

so when i was back in toronto, packing to leave, my friend gave me this plant. we had this (recent) thing where we'd buy each other plants, randomly. she had told me, a long time ago, that she liked these "plant in a bag" things they sold at the store 'green earth' (which is like THE coolest store in scarborough town centre). she had bought herself one a while back, and it died. so i bought her one for her birthday, i think it was called "thinking of you" or something like that, or for some other occasion, can't remember. unless she either told me and i forgot, or she just didn't tell me at all (i probably just forgot, seeing as how my memory is horrible)- it should still be alive and living on her windowsill above her desk. when i went to hong kong over the summer, i bought her this strawberry plant grown out of this tin can thing, and a basil plant that grew OUT OF AN EGG (it was the wicked thing)!!! and so in return, she bought me this "plant in a bag" and it was called the "forget me not" plant. the little picture told me that it would be this little blue flower; it was so cute! SO I WAS SO EXCITED TO GROW IT!! i'm not much of a nature person; not that i didn't like nature, i was just never really exposed to it and never really took care of plants (mind you, plants grown out of bags are NOT natural). so as i was unpacking from my plane ride from toronto to piedmont california, I SAW THE PLANT! immediately, i read the instructions, and gave it life with seeds and water. i looked at it like everyday, re-reading the instructions every time making sure i couldn't have missed steps or anything, putting it in warm places, smiling when i thought of it (cause i missed the friend who got it for me) and then getting sad. so lo and behold, a month and a half later, it lies happily with the other dirt outside my house because i didn't grow it properly, or because it didn't like me, or maybe it was a sign. i was so sad. i followed each and every step correctly, DOUBLE-CHECKING like everyday. and it doesn't even sprout me any little sprouts. i was very unhappy.

but could this be some sort of (unforseen) sign? a plant called "forget me not" never even grows. what is that supposed to mean?

so, this is my tribute for my "forget me not" plant from my friend back home in toronto. i'm sorry i couldn't grow it. i feel terrible. i'm hoping that this "forget me not" plant not growing is not a sign. so here's to a would-have-been beautiful plant!